most colorful color you might see in this post
Chanel by Karl's little black jacket
black H&M coat with peter pan collar
black long sleeves top and eternally black ukulele
Chantal Goya's black vinyls
oh gosh, i apologize to myself i took a very long time break from writing here, i have been too busy to do things unnecessary, and to let memories gone as well; for example: i don't take a picture when there's something memorable.
first, i would like to say fuck 2012 we are currently in the year 2013! i was celebrate new year in paris, indonesians came to my new house (yes, finally i moved after 100 days of suffering, my sufferation shall be no more). so, we planned to decorate the house, the first picture on top was the decoration on my living room. there were so many peoples; there were best friends, friends that i barely knew, even strangers. since i do not have privacy, they already knew me. ten seconds before a new year, we yelled count-down, i have been surrounded by drunk & non-drunk friends, sleepy-heads, love-birds, independent peoples, the best people i could have met, lighted a cigarette and smoke it all away, there are stories in every corner of this place. we were wide awake until one by one fell asleep, how chaos my house at that time. by the way, we made 19:02 duration video with all the fantasy new year resolutions and full of rude words, i shall not post them, it is a private collection. what a great way to end the great year ever.
winter greeted me, so i wear coat. i bought a dream coat that has peter pan collar on it. inspired by Karl's campaign of little black jacket, i took photos of black wardrobes i ALWAYS wear. i always chose dark color and don't know why, i'm trying so hard to buy the pretty coloring ones but then, they always be with summer clothes on winter. on summer 2012, i have and am able to play ukulele (it was my dream, now it came true) sadly, i haven't any confidence yet to sing for all of you with Blacky; the name of ukulele of mine. i know it more sounds like the name of black dogs, it's a joke though.
to listen to a vinyl is like everyone's dream who wasn't born at the age. what makes me adore Chantal Goya is because i love her acting on (1966) Jean-Luc Godard's Masculin Feminin. i used to listen to her songs on youtube as well, so i bought vinyls of her, again, the black ones.
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La Maison Rouge, Bastille, Paris 75012
who doesn't know i love Lindsey Wixson so much? my love for her is just too much, yes too much. i often draw her but she's not that easy to be drawn. until one day, i was on the train to go to Rennes, to meet up with my noodle maker that could not, would not, and should not be forgotten, i didn't have movie to watch, so i drew this (to me) number one gap-tooth model i fall in love at the first sight. i currently am studying in art school but i really don't belong here, to learn some art basic. i know, i came from zero and maybe now i am more, still, i have to increase my skills of drawing and everything. how hard it is to go to fashion school in France, i postponed until 2 years long, i wish this would be worth it, like my perspective teacher said "vous me remerciez après."
a lot of assignments to do, too much money i spent to go to temporary exhibition, so cold outside, i still can't stop smoking, i have not eat vegetables so far, still can't pose beautifully in front of camera, still wake up late and can't fall asleep easily but also can't easily awake in the early morning, i'm so fucked up, i come late to school, almost everyday, still have no part-time job on record store or boutique, still being perfectionist which really waste my time and forget to do the rest, still sleeping with music, with headset on so i can hear the instruments clearly. new year won't change me.
i secretly tell my lullaby lately:
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